Tuesday, October 26, 2010


OMG.  I AM SO SORE.  Like...insanely sore.  My body is so stiff. It sucks, but I know that this is a good thing.  My knees are all bruised, my legs hurt to even sit on the toilet. and my shoulders are feeling rank. I slept until 10am, which was awesome, Phil worked late shift, and our kids seem to be sleeping in lately, which is a good thing.  It took me like 20 minutes to get out of bed.  Urghh.  I LOVE OUR NEW BED.  Brand new posterpedic thingy, with new crisp bedding, nice new cotton sheets and a duvet.  Urgh, it's like sleeping in a warm cloud.  Sleep is like my favorite thing, especially besides my honey.  Normally he annoys me during his sleep (and mine).  He's one of them sleepers that slops, snores, talks, laughs, twitches.  Even thinking about it irks me.  Haha, when I was pregnant I would like yell at him all the time because ANYTHING and EVERYTHING would wake me up.  I feel bad for sleeping in cause I had planned to take my kids to this play thingy, Nashoba knew I was going to be taking them, but I slept in and had a slow go this morning.  I feel horrible, so I will have to make it up to him some how today. :0(    OUCH.  Well, I am off to do a bit of cardio, and get some CORE STRENGTHENING while I can.  


Then training tonight again...

Ohhh..and I am so excited, my first Mark order comes in this afternoon.   SAAAWWEEET!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Weight and Fitness

So here are some thoughts as I sit here in pain after coming home from training my first session this week. 

Thought number one.  It doesn't matter how thin you are...you can still be thin and out of shape.  So to me in MY OPINION...there is:  SKINNY THIN, FIT THIN, FAT THIN(soft) 

Fit Thin


Thought number three..  I am a FAT THIN, weighing in at 135lbs,  and I really need to work on my whole body strength especially my core and my legs.   Which will really benefit me. See I  don't think I am FAT...let's not get this twisted, I am just not fit.  I have toned up a lot in my arms but my core is still rather week, and my lower body strength particularly my upper theighs and gloutes need to be targeted, and already...YES THEY ARE..HENCE THE NOT WALKING PROPERLY PART.

I have some personal goals with what I'm learning.  I do have the determination and will.  I just need to do EXTRA things to make sure that I can be successful.  Which is what I want.  And what I will do. 

So this week, I am working on my own at home just at training on my core.  That is my focus, and that is what I have set out to do, on top of cardio.  :0)  Yes I say this with a smiley face...but just thinking at some of the moves we had today..I am just thinking to myself how silly I could look cause I am such a tall lanky uncoordinated mess when it comes to working out and that stuff.  LOL.

Between drinking my tea, and writing this blog that I havent even wrote much, I am watching this chick Kyra Gracie.   Shes damn good. 

Let's see if I can bring these abs out in a few weeks...lol.  :0)

Friday, October 22, 2010

"Save Him"

The link below is the actual song by Justin Nozuka, "Save Him"


My older brother Robin showed me this link.  I do not think I have heard a song in such a long time that moved me as much as this.  Especially from a mainstream artist.  I personally feel that now a days music has become so commercialized, and has lost it's culture.  It's essence so to say.  This is a song that I actually had to listen to  over and over again, and read the lyrics over and over.  The story, the creativity, the expression that Justin Nozuka has used in a song coming from a mans point of view is EXTRAORDINARY.  Don't get me wrong.  I love COMMERCIALIZED HIP HOP,  I love the beats, the hooks, all the computerized cool stuff they mix in, but what I really would like to see is meaning and artists express themselves like they used to back in the day. Justin, the song writer took something that is HUSHED upon in communities all over the world, and overlooked and wrote a song about it.......that blows me away...and this is why.

Most of us all know who Rhianna is; a young female r&b artist who endured a rank beating from her then boyfriend Chris Brown, and it was blown up all over the media. We all know how bad it looked.  

Now do you think a contempary HUGE MAINSTREAM ARTIST would actually use her fame to express all she endured?  That just blows me away, that music is an art...an expression and have we yet to hear something from Rhianna that isn't INDIRECTLY talking about what happened between her and Chris Brown.  I am sure her record label had something to do about that, that maybe it would wreck her imagine.  WHO KNOWS!

I was in a bad abusive relationship, and I don't want to go to in depth about it.  But funny how Justin writes, "She said, Save Him, Save Him"  which is dead on because that is a mentality that a lot of battered woman have.  They are more worried about fixing the man, instead of their broken selves.  

My husband asks, "Why you always have to go back to that?!?!...."Why do you have to write about it or talk about"

Hmmmm...well who knows husband my dear.  It may be the way I deal with it to talk about it.  It may be good for me to share my words, as a SURVIOR of domestic abuse.  

I have a voice, I will use it.  If someone hears it, and if it is able to really SPEAK to someone...my story that is.  Then I am happy that maybe in some sort of small way that I have helped someone, or educated someone that if you are a victim of domestic abuse, you are not alone and it is NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED ABOUT, OR BE QUIETED BY ANYONE...NOT EVEN FROM YOURSELF.

Here are the lyrics to the song, take a good listen....

Save Him lyrics
Justin Nozuka
Songwriters: Nozuka, Justin;

Yeah, she loves him more, he loves her more
Seems like they never let each other go
Laughing and kissing, it's a match made in Heaven

Behind the rings on their fingers
Imprints the ink deep in the inner
That have stained their souls together now
Staying soul mates forever now

Seems like they've made it to the other side
Where the grass is greener
And the sky is always blue
And it goes on forever and ever
But there is only room for two

Deep at night, I'm awakened from my dreams
Next door, yelling, cries, mercy, she is begging, "Please
Don't end my life, you're all I need"
And a, "Darling, I would never leave, never leave"

And then she prayed on her knees
She said "Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

Darker clouds cover her paradise
She covers her eyes and hides
Behind enemy lines
And she walks through the night
With her child in her arms
She's come back, hostage

You see twenty years ago
When she was just ten years old
Lost in imagination, she was left alone
And Pops had nothing to let his anger on
Oh, he beat her cold, yes he did
He beat her cold

She used to pray on her knees
She said "Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

Deep at night, I'm awaken from my dreams
Next door, yelling, cries, mercy, she's begging, "Please"
Begging, "Please," begging, "Please"
"Get up, get up," he brings her to her feet
And smacks her down
'Till she falls to the ground

Oh, and over and over again
He brings her to her feet 'til she can no longer stand
Oh, and still the beating never ends
On and on and on he goes, until he brings out a gun
And says to her, "Stop crying and bring me my son"

She cries harder and harder
He cries harder and harder
She says, "Baby, please don't, don't do this"
Oh, two shots to her chest and a blow to his own head
Oh, she quickly loses breath and then rushes to the bed

And baby cries, he cries his eyes out
"Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on
Save him, save him from the hand that he beats me on"

She loves him more, he loves her more
Seems like they never let each other go
Laughing and kissing, it's a match made in Heaven

Thursday, October 14, 2010

It's One of Them Nights Where I need...

I've just been having them days.  Past few of them actually.  Call it PMS, call it being unsatisfied with life.  Call it just plain out being a miserable witch.  Call it what you will...I HAVE BEEN HAVING THEM.  I am actually starting to feel better today. And no it wasn't the four new eyeshadow pallettes that arrived in the mail today(will blog about later) that made me feel better.  Who knows.  Maybe I will call it an adjustment period.  I am pretty lonely.  It's only now this past year I have actually started to make friends.  Last year I was on bed rest and sick pretty much my whole pregnancy with our daughter Niyana.  I don't know a TON of people out here I can call good friends whom I see on a regualr basis.  I am just starting to get to know them.  I can be a little standoffish, a little timid when meeting people and figuring out who I want in my life.  But that's my choice. I think everyone should be picky about the characters of people who they let into their lives, especially if you have children.  Anyways point of my blog, is that tonight is my FEEL GOOD NIGHT. 

No you perves.  NOT a "FEEL GOOD NIGHT" but a feel good night.  Ya know, things to make you feel good. 

I am so happy that my kids are on a schedule and by 8:00pm they are in bed.  That meant my Philip and I were able to have a cuddle, and he was off to start his winding down for the night, and I was able to start mine. 

I had the HOTTEST shower possible, I washed my hair with the thickest lather, and conditioned my hair until the water ran cool.  Now doing this is a LUXURY for me because if you have kids, you know that sometimes, showers are a 5 minute thing, if that. I dried off, put on some body lotion, towel dried my hair and found some cute pajamas.  I love cute pajamas.  I LOVE looking cute at all times.  It is A MUST.  I have a drawer full of cute jammies and nighties.  Don't get me wrong, there are them days and nights where I will lounge in one of Phils shirts, jerseys or just something comfy of mine, I have a few of them, but in my opinion, there is nothing cuter than being all clean and fresh even to go to bed.  I want Phil to fall asleep and wake up to his BEAUTY.  I threw on my big ole white fluffy slippers (the hardwood is kinda cool and I don't want to get rough feet) and I grabbed my facial mask.  OMG MY FACIAL MASK!  I LOVE THIS THING!!!  I SWEAR.  IF ANY OF YOU DO NOT HAVE A FACIAL MASK...GO OUT AND BY ONE!!!  SERIOUSLY!  You should at least use a facial mask once a week, if you can...twice.  This is the one I use...I found it at Zellers.  It's from all organic ingredients and it makes me skin feel oh so good and healthy. I think skin care is so important, especially if you are my age.  I'm 26.  I want to keep my skin healthy and take preventative measures so when I am in my thirties or mid thirties I don't look like a leather face.  You leave this skin mask on for 20 minutes, and use warm water to wipe it off, and your skin feels and looks RADIANT.  I know I sound like a commercial, but this stuff is awesome.  I used to use the Proactive Refining Mask, but it had that sulfate stuff in it, and it STUNK.  Like rank bad.  Also it dried my skin out a bit.  After I use this stuff my skin feels so tight and firm....and did I say SO SO SOFT.  There's nothing better then feeling your face and KNOWING for sure that its soft like a babies bottom.  Mmmhmm..and MEN LOVE SMOOTH SKIN.  I know mine does.  :0)  

OK, so as I am writing this, I am also enjoying a cup of decaffeinated Green Tea(I drink a few cups of green tea daily, as its good in weight loss, and full of antioxidants)  in my pretty teacup, and just waiting for JERSEY SHORE as it's Thursday.  Yupp, I am a sucker, kinda brings me back to my Toronto Clubbing days.  LOL....Anyways, even if this little me time bored ya...it sure as hell made me feel good.

  Here is a link to the facial mask I swear by....


I hope y'all have a good night..

Dee's Outtie!!!

New On Blogging

Seeing as this if my first blog.  I might as well introduce myself.  So here's the basics.  I am First Nations, Military Wife living on a SMALL military base here in Canada. I grew up just outside of Toronto and have traveled many places.  I LOVE TO SHOP, I love makeup, and am just starting out as a freelance makeup artist. I have two beautiful children.  Nashoba being my oldest, who is three and a half, and my beautiful daughter, Niyana who has just turned nine months old.  My husband, Phil is military, your typical football, PS3 game loving guy.  Oh yes, I can't forget our dog Corky.  She's a Cardigan Welsh Corgi.  She's three.

Well what to say about me?

I am opinionated, easy going, temperamental, easy to get a long with. I speak what's on my mind, I can be weird.  OK, never mind.  I am weird. I am a huge dork.  When you first meet me, let's say in a crowd or a group of people, it has been said that I look like a bitch, or a stuck up snob, others have said I walk around like my shit don't stink, but ask my friends.  DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER, because the first impression, what you see before knowing me is BY FAR...FALSE.  Hmmmm...what else to say?  I am hot headed. I've experienced a lot, good and bad out of life, but have come out on top, which I would like to say I am wise.   Expect the unexpected from this blog.  I live in a town of 15, 000 people. So let's see what this big city girl in a small town can get herself up to!!  :0)